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Monday, March 17, 2008

It's the 1st day of sch. LOLx.. as usual, the more busy my life, the more I got to blog. LOLx.. Abit of irony rite?? Like sch start shld focus and stop doin things that wasting my own time.

But heck.. I so not in the mood to study anything. Wednesday there is Bio test. Damn siah.. Evolution like super smoky. Hard to decipher and smoke well. It's like smoking the smoke out. LOLx.. that's high lvl smoke. I am scared. Yea.. Wait.. I am not scared of the bio test. It's just something on wednesday also.. Something that I put in effort but the results are not showing. I just dunno Y.. I noe I can. Without stress, at home, I am able to pull it off, but why?? In sch, with so much unneeded pressure, I just can't do it. Let's hope that it will b okay by the end of this month. I so want to achieve it.

Today also I counted the days I have left in track. It's been like 1 year+ le.. So fast. It seems like only yesterday that I was so enthusiastic about track and all the dreams and wishes. But now.. It's all coming to an end. If u ask me whether I regret it, I will straight away say no. Cos I love running N that's why I join. But some thoughts just strike me yesterday. While warming up for the race, some1 told me like I run N run so much these 2 years. After all these, wat did I achieve?? Isit goin to help me any sort of way?? Shldn't we be more practical and focus on things that are more concrete and defining our future like studies?? After all.. JC is all bout 'A's and it is ultimately gonna decide what ur future will b. Yea.. that thought really stuck me hard and deep. So many times I have dreams and work towards them, but after all, this is something that has it's expiry date. After July, it's just gonna b memmories. All the number tags are just memmorial items. Han lao shi ask me once early this year. Is achieving a final's position so important?? Is that really gonna make u some1. This thought has always been buggin me. Yea.. coach say b4 that I will nvr b able to win a medal. Cos the competition out there is just too much. There is no placing for me. So a final's placing is all the best that I can achieve. Yea.. it's just a final position at local level only. People running for Singapore do not live on it for bread and butter. All runners in Singapore also have to engage in other activities as the competition on the world stage is just too much for them. So.. Is gettin into the finals so important?? That question, I am still unable to find out the answer.

Something to tink about for those that works hard towards achieving. But reality and dreams, we must noe where the line must b drawn.

Random thoughts: It's now or never..

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