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Sunday, October 21, 2007

Hmm.. I suddenly dont noe how to organize my thoughts..

Well.. these few days been busy running up and down. But ya.. shld b okay bah.. I dunno.. Now my feelings are that I am very lonely.. Too lonely le. I suddenly long for a spark to kick off this dull life. I feel like a puppet. One that has nothing in life and just live for the sake of living and that things nvr ever b right. Hmm.. I also dunno why I am writing such stuff.. >.<

Haiz.. hmm.. I dunno.. I now feel lolss. N it's not cos of the studies or watever. Just feel lolss.. Haiz.. Not say emo, but not say happy enought to last through.. I dunno wat this is called. Just that life seems to b missing an important portion. Yea.. I really dunno wat I am thinking!!!

I was just thinking.. When things are said so explicitly, isit worth holding on and praying for a miracle. Well.. I dunno.. Cos I... Hmm.. let's just say that hoping and praying means that u're gonna devote more hopes into it n sort of really wish it will happen. But the problem is that when it doesnt happen, U will seem like crashing from heaven to earth like that. U will b very sad. Or shld I say only me. Yea.. I dunno.. Just just.. dunno.. Nothing seems right suddenly.. Nothing. I really dont want to b dissapointed again. I mean the feeling sux. But than.. will I?? Shld i tink about it?? Shld I do things that I nvr live to regret?? But wat is things that I will live to regret?? I dunno.. so many questions r in my head now. It's like its nvr ending. I dunno if this is bein hopeful. But I really wish for some miracle.

God was kind and so to giv me a present once. Really kind. Till today, I nvr regreted it. But, I was dumb to throw all that away. I forsaken that cos of my immaturity. But now.. after all that, is this another gift?? I dunno.. Or shld I b contented with wat is happening now??

Lolss.. and confused.. Dunno wat is right =(

NOT Random thoughts: Why others seem so easy?? why for me it always look so complicated?? Or mayb it is complicated?? Doin anything requires courage to be prepared for any failure, But why do I not have it anymore?? I dunno..

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